God, I hate essays.

[fenderlove]

"The Autobiography of a Thought" is the topic for my latest FYS essay. It might be helpful if I actually had thoughts on the topics before I read the books for FYS so the ideas could change or evolve after I read the books! I don't give a piss about Darwin, Freud, Lu Hsun, or Weber. I don't even know what Weber is talking about half the time! Protestantism invented modern capitalism? Is that what the book is supposed to be about? I've got no frickin' clue! Freud and Darwin only make me want to kill myself.

I think I'm going to write about whether or not love and happiness can exist together, or if one doesn't exist, then the other cannot exist. I'm not sure. I can't fake this. I'm either going to prove that love and happiness do exist or that neither exist, and I'm just going to majorly depress myself. I think I'm a lameass uncreative writer at this point. I'm just on the verge of tears right now.

Comments

[jans-intentions.livejournal.com]

The only Weber I read is David and er, his Honor Harrington series. Ummm. ;)

Maybe you should end it all. It sounds like an appalling topic.

Seriously, is there not one thread that makes you feel passionate? If you can find it, you could spin it out. I do find essays seriously annoying because they seem to require so much "padding" or check marks. I was never good at them.

Hope you win through in the end. Wish I had better advice. I just sucked at essays. Made my point too clear and too fast and one prof scolded me for lacking in editorial "foreplay." :P

[fenderlove.livejournal.com]

Heh, now we come to why Fender is a terrible student. I'm horribly obstinate and stubborn about my ideas. I can't change them; my mind stays pretty much set with what I think is true. There has to be pretty strong evidence to make my thoughts evolve. Unfortunately, Freud has no proof to his claims so I can't believe a word he says. And even more unfortunately, the only passion I feel is anger, and the paper is supposed to be about how an idea changed. I think it's a little pretenscious of my prof for just assuming that every student would have a profound experience and suddenly have a completely new way of looking at the world after reading these books. I mean, Freud makes a good poetical read, but hardly to be taken seriously. Gah, I just rambled so much. I'm terrible at essays which I feel have no point. ^_~