Drowning in my own tears... not really... or at all...

[fenderlove]

*cries* I am a horrid person, I really am. See the cut for real-life badness....

I feel so ashamed of myself. I told myself I would get all my work done this weekend and be done with it. What did I do? Stayed up late every night and did nothing! I just can't believe it. It only felt like I was sitting down for a moment at six and now it's 10 bleedin' 30! I'm not going to Japanese tomorrow, I don't think. I'm getting up and getting dressed at my normal time, but if I don't feel up to the three quizzes I have to make up, I'm not going. Why am I doing this to myself especially right at the end of the first semester? I have some sort of self-destruct mechanism in my head or something! I'm just freakin' out here. I'm not sure if my shuttle will make it to the airport in time, my airplane ticket is nonrefundable or changeable, and I don't know when I'm going to find time to pack and move my stuff around during finals week! Oh my sweet Lord! *bangs head on desk* I still don't have my math homework done either that's due tomorrow because I can't bloody figure it out. I'm, like, a total failure. This is the perfect example of why I shouldn't be allowed to have friends: I get distracted from school. This has been happening since I was in fifth grade. I just need to lock myself in a room with my work. Every time I go to find some place to study quietly, someone is there that I know and want to talk to ergo no work getting done. I've gotta toughen up here, but I have absolutely no willpower at the moment. I could get some work done right now, but I'm not as it is plain to see since I'm posting this instead of actually working. God, I hate myself sometimes for acting like such a complete git. *bangs head on desk again*

Comments

[serenitystarre.livejournal.com]

Oh, babe, I did the same exact thing. I have no work done. My friends and I are skipping four periods tomorrow in order to get breakfast and study for a huge chem test. *hug* You are definitely NOT alone, there is nothing wrong with you... it isn't right for an education to drain this much out of us. Just thinking about school makes me want to cry. No sane person would enjoy doing so much work. You're just a normal, clearly-not-insane human being.

Off to try studying... *wink*

[sailorlum.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[fenderlove.livejournal.com]

Aww, thank you.

[fenderlove.livejournal.com]

Thanks. ^_^ I'm not going to Japanese today, I decided... At least, I have your Aladdin icon to cheer me up. Heh.