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I resent politicians telling me that I'm lazy or spoiled because I am currently unemployed. I resent being told that, because I am unemployed, that if I got unemployment benefits that I would spend the money on drugs. I resent being called a "hobo." I, for some reason, didn't qualify for unemployment benefits despite having paid money out of my paychecks into those benefits (I am aware of a few factors for why I didn't get my benefits, but I never received a definite answer for why I didn't get them when I first lost my job). I've put in over 500 applications for jobs in the past nine months and gone on several interviews, but apparently that just makes me a lazy person. There are over 5 applicants per every job available in this country today. Are the politicians just really that out-of-touch with the everyday person out there just trying to make a living? I even moved to another state for a period of time to look for work during which time I held a job for a short period of time. Now I'm doing freelance graphic design work again, but there's no way I could support myself on what I'm currently making. I am not lazy. I am not a hobo. I'm not a drug addict. I am not stray animal. I am not a mooch on the system. I just want what I paid for, and I want to be treated like a human being.
And just to add, for the past two months, my mom has been paying my student loans. It's the one thing I never wanted to have happen. I already feel like a huge failure because of this, and to be told that it's basically my fault for trying to get an education and better my chances of getting a job (chances that turned out to be slim and nil under the best situations apparently) makes me feel even worse. Mom wants me to go back to school to get my Ph.D. and has agreed to help me until I can get through school. However, I am going to have to get even more loans, and I just have the fear that no amount of betterment is going to make me any more hirable. I have no idea how a Ph.D. will benefit me at this point, but it's my only choice at the moment if I need my mom to continue helping me. *crawls under a rock*
And just to add, for the past two months, my mom has been paying my student loans. It's the one thing I never wanted to have happen. I already feel like a huge failure because of this, and to be told that it's basically my fault for trying to get an education and better my chances of getting a job (chances that turned out to be slim and nil under the best situations apparently) makes me feel even worse. Mom wants me to go back to school to get my Ph.D. and has agreed to help me until I can get through school. However, I am going to have to get even more loans, and I just have the fear that no amount of betterment is going to make me any more hirable. I have no idea how a Ph.D. will benefit me at this point, but it's my only choice at the moment if I need my mom to continue helping me. *crawls under a rock*
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